Unspoken Care

Does love need any voice or touch? I believe love is something that can be expressed by many different ways. And the greatest love is the one that is expressed silently, without many words or any special sophisticated expressions. Love is simple. Like a drop of water one cannot live without. 

Today I had my normal Thursday. Well, it was not that usual, of course. I'm still feeling a huge stone on my heart because of my loss. I'm still heartbroken. I think a part of me is forever stolen. It is always like that if you love someone. Love means "give". 

This afternoon I was happily talking to my good friend. We practised some language things. Nothing special as it might seem but that activity really made me feel better. I'm very thankful to my friend. Maybe he'll never know how glad I was today. 

This evening I suddenly felt myself so cold. It was such a warm miracle to see my dear mom bringing me a cup of tea...Well, again. Seems so little to mention. But that makes me very happy. My cup of tea with a great spoonful of my mom's love. The best tea ever.

I'm grateful for feeling loved. Maybe some people around (like me!) do not express it the way it could be, but it doesn't matter at all. I'm happy I am loved for nothing. Just for being. And I hope I'll learn it too.

My shoulders

Today was sad. I kept on working, trying to keep my mind closed for any sort of thoughts. But I could not. Today was the funeral of my dear teacher. I did not attend it. I see there is nothing I can change but to keep my happy memories I had with her. 

Today I have felt some far away and close support of people around me. They kindly chatted with me and just listened to me and tried to heal my aching wound. 

I'm really grateful to strong shoulders of my dear friends who tried to bring a smile onto my face today. I'm happy to feel this warm support. It is great to feel someone's shoulder. It's great not to be alone. It's great to see how much people care for me. 

Memories...

Life is so fragile...Like a leaf that one day changes its fresh green colour into yellow and slowly falls down...Like the last sunray on one's cheek...Like a wind...

Today it is hard...really hard for me to find a reason for lots of joys...I have lost a very dear person. My first school teacher who opened the world of books to me - passed away...And what makes me feel really empty and shocked is that she seems to have ended her life by herself...I am still in shock and I am sure I'll need some more time to comprehend this strange situation. My heart is bleeding. No last goodbye. Only her gentle voice in my ears, her lovely laughter and her best wishes writings on the books she once presented me...

She is gone. I'll always miss her. I don't understand why she had to leave. What I can always do is to cherish my memories of this great lady who did so much to me and my sister. I'm just lost for words. Only memories...lots of them. Sweet and bitter. Funny situations...The times when her gentle hands wiped my tears away...

I'm grateful for having my dear ones with me. I know one day we'll come back Home. Now I am alive. I have to try to live each day with a smile - in my heart and hearts of those who are around me. I hope I'll be able to make some people happy. Now I'm sad. Honestly. But I really hope for God's mercy and comfort. I'll appreciate your kind thoughst of me too. Life is beautiful. Remember it. And don't miss a chance to tell someone how much you need them. Don't hurt people you love. Remember you never know when you'll see them for the last time...Just be close. Please.

                          The Cold Air Joy

Today I went out. I usually do not go out in winter much. I'm too lazy to put on tons of clothes and I just hate feeling myself a real cabbage...and sure, it is so unpleasant.  I can't also deny the fact it is more difficult for my mom now to carry me outside. So, I just don't feel like bothering her much (though I know she never takes it as a burden or whatever). 

Today I have felt how wonderful it is to be outside. It was really chilly, I got slightly cold, but I enjoyed it. And I imagined lots of people who due to their complicated health conditions might not enjoy the same cold air like me and I felt myself lucky. And...I believe I should really spend more time outside. Life is too short to spend it far away from the sky, from the birds spreading the spring message around. I really need some life changes and I'm grateful for some new thoughts that crossed my mind today. I'm grateful for my great supporter - my dear mom and my good friends who keep me feel warm. 


I'm grateful for some moments of silence I've had today. I'm grateful for going out and all the positive moments I've experienced. I'm a bit excited about some of my dreams. It's like diving for the first time - you never know how it really goes after all. So, I have nothing else to do  but to enjoy what I have at present and look forward to some of my dreams to becoming a reality.

                 The Touch of the Spring

I was enjoying some fresh air today. I can't say I could already swim or enjoy sun kisses...BUT...today I really felt some spring in the air! 

I had a very calm Sunday. No real rush. My only free day. I'm grateful for having this lovely time of self  and world discovery. I'm happy to feel the gentle touch of the spring today. I'm grateful to my far away online friend who made my evening special. We laughed without any ending. It is cool to laugh and feel happy for nothing. Just happy. 

                     Fingers Dancing!!! 

Well, I'm sorry. Today my post will be short. The reason is I am half asleep and already seeing some sweet dreams...;) But I feel like writing to you anyway. My eyes can remain closed. My fingers can work almost independently. :D

I'm grateful for my feeling happy without any special reason today. I'm thrilled about playing the piano a bit more. Well, I cannot maybe call it real "playing" but today I managed to play a piece by ear! That is really exciting to dance around the keyboard in search of the right melody...It's like a real crossword or falling in love at first sight...Really. I'm so glad I'm slowly coming to playing even though my fingers are still clumsy...grr. I hate it and want to bite my fingers off during such "error" moments. But I must admit my fingers did pretty well today. ;) I was almost satisfied! ;)

I'm also happy about the happiness of my very good female friend I have just chatted with. It feels good to see someone happy. 

And yeah...one more joy. My student presented me a notebook for St. Valentine's Day. ;) Yeah..in Ukraine it's common to greet with this love holiday everyone you want to. ;) It has nothing to do with being really in love. Well, my student made me happy. I love my new notebook! ;) I guess I'll use it for some creative thoughts! ;)

Okay. Now to bed. I promised to be short...so you see I am not someone you can always trust...:P
My fingers love dancing. ;) 

   Hello from a Star or a Special Sweet Lollipop!!!

Today I’m really happy. I’d say I’m feeling as happy as if a real star were in my palm.  Well, let me describe you my happiness of today.

My good friend surprised me today very much. Yesterday he sent a message to someone I admire very much. It’s one of the well-known Russian actors…and Guess what? This morning I received his real video-hello! He was speaking to me. And even threw his magical lollipop to me! Yeah…his sense of humour makes me smile without any end. :)

It is strange, but this person who never saw me made my day really bright. And more than that. His funny message has filled me with hope and a huge source of determination to go to my dreams.

I’m grateful to my good friend whose care made it possible to make such a great miracle happen today. I’m grateful to this great person and talented actor who spent some minutes for someone he never saw or heard. I’m just happy. Smiling all the time. :) I’m grateful for this miracle and that magical lollipop I’ve caught today. It should mean it’ll be easier for me to be happy now. ;)

What I want to say for today is – miracles happen. As long as kind people exist, life has lots of sense. I’m grateful to God for His love that shines from the hearts of those I meet every day…