The Yummy Process of Burning the Midnight Oil...or My Butterfly Happiness

My Saturday was unusually complete. I can say I'm truly and sincerely grateful for this day. For these precious twenty four hours of joys. Sometimes a weird thought crosses my mind. I feel Saturday to be my special day. There's probably nothing wrong about it. I was even born on Saturday. That's maybe why some of my Saturdays are my red letter days. :)

First I am grateful for seeing my papa for the first time since the end of March. We see each other once in  a blue moon. We spent some time together. Had our lunch, visited our friends and in the evening time we enjoyed eating a huge plate of strawberries. My dad also bought lots of ice-cream. I sort of came back to my past, when I was a little girl waiting for my pa to be back from work. He would always bring something like sweets....Some things will never be the same. Some moments are over. However, I cherish it when we are together. Even let it be for some hours. Some hours are worth the whole life.

I'm grateful for visiting my friends today. A daughter and a  husband of my teacher who died last winter. It was the first time I came there, to their place since she's gone. That was different. Her smile did not welcome me this time. I did not hear her special lovely way of calling me "Dashunya"...That was still nice to be there. To talk to her daughter. To listen to her husband. To drink tea. To have some fun with their sweet doggy. 

I'm grateful for knowing my teacher. Now she's gone. But not from my heart that will bleed forever. There is nothing else left but to keep all our days, good and sad ones and to treasure everything she taught me. She taught me to go on, to smile, to love what I do. Now I look at her daughter's eyes, trying to catch her light. And I see some hope. I see we all must keep on breathing, smiling and following our dreams...even through tears. We just must do that.

And finally....last night my eyes and fingers were busy with the yummy process of the burning the midnight oil. :) I love such nights when I stay awake. And that was exactly this time. I did not sleep much. Surely, my mind and body were somehow sleeping, but my inner self was happily travelling to another part of the world where I wish I could be. I had a  virtual travel. I felt over the moon. Just on top of the world. Just happy. A bit sad too. I can't change some things. I can't always do what I wish I could. But last night I almost forgot about what I did not have. I was happy about what I did have. About my happy moment. I am grateful for hitting the sack with the morning birds. I felt like I came back from a very long trip. From somewhere I had the time of my life. I almost felt my dream in my palms. At least on my fingertips. :)

I'm grateful for my pieces of joys that like stars shine in my heart. That means now I'm not in the darkness. Now I know where I should go. It doesn't matter that my body wanted some rest. It doesn't matter at all. What really mattered was this miracle called "happiness" that visited me.  Even let it be my last joy.


I'm again terribly sorry for being so unclear. Probably one day I'll come out with what I have in my heart. Right now I'm happy and I want to enjoy it. My happiness is just a butterfly that may fly away any second. So, I'm standing still, admiring it in my heart.

Just like this song of Ruslana! ;) My mood theme! ;)

                                 Speak Up

It's great when we speak up our mind. It's awful we usually never do that. We usually feel afraid of it. We usually wear masks that are compfortable to look at. We don't always express what we really feel. We don't...so many  'don't. ;)

Today I had a long talk. I said what I felt. What I truly have on my heart. That's great. Especially when there's a careful listener. That's my great fortune to have such a fantastic pair of ears around. ;) 

I'm grateful for my Friday. For my tongue that can speak. I'm grateful for my strawberry season. I'm grateful for my bright little student who's now the best one in his class! :) The best English speaker. I'm happy to feel myself a little part of it. 

I'm grateful for my memories that won't be stolen. I'm grateful for my little progress with German. I can slowly speak it better and faster. Well, sure not so lightning fast like Ukrainian but...the time will come, I hope! ;) I hope the time will come when I won't be shy to tell someone what I really feel.

                              The Sign of the Light

I met someone. This person differs from everyone I know. We are two different worlds.  Totally. Absolutely. At first I did not really expect anything special about this person. Just one of many. 

But there was a word of him. One single word that was like a sunray in the darkness. I'm happy, truly happy to see or feel the light shining from some people. Even if it's just a moment. Another sign of the Light. Of God. 

I'm happy to see one of my friends who despite the fact of being super busy found some minutes of life for me. That's a great gift.

I'm grateful for my Thursday. For my unexpected lesson. For my tears of happiness. I don't usually cry for joy. But this day I did. I'm happy to realize how many kind people are there around. Even if they hide it well. :) It's uneasy to hide the light. 

                    Happy Spring St. Nickolas Day!

Today we celebrated the spring St. Nickolas Day. I started my day together with the first birds. The sun gently woke me up. I was sleepy but still felt happy. It is so lovely to start the day with the first sunrays. It's really beautiful. My mom's sleepy voice. My sleepy funny eyes. My plaits' making. 

The service was not attended by so many people. But our little crowd made me feel warmer. St. Nickolas shows his miracles even today. I don't know how but I managed to stay awake during the service despite my heavy eyes. When I came back home I did not feel so fresh at all. So, I just took my afternoon nap. ;)

Then I had a very special English lesson. I use this very adjective "special" because my student is one step away from saying good bye to me. And maybe forever. I mean as a student. She'll start a new page in her long and hopefully happy life. And I'll go on turning my own pages of life. No clear future. I'm a lazy page turner...sipping my black tea and enoying strawberries...

I'm sincerely grateful to one of my friends who assisted my lesson today! I'm afraid I did ruin his normal morning routine but at least he did not show that. He warmed me up with his smiles. :)

Then my day was almost over...but...another joy! A friend of mine invited me to visit his place, shared a piece of his life with me. That was awesome to visit him, even let it be just an virtual visit. I enjoyed feeling myself his guest, listening to his stories.

I'm grateful for every second of my life today. Now I feel a bit broken apart. I mean my body is protesting. I should really give it a rest. No other way out. ;) Just a new trip to my land of sweet dreams! See you, guys tomorrow! I hope so. 

P.S. Btw, no rains today!!!!!!

                             Click on Joy

Today I had climbed a real mountain of different tasks. I almost ran out of breath but managed to reach the top! ;) 

It was thundering but somehow the sky decided to let me finish my urgent matters. 

And, of course, I had my pause moments. And my great plan was set. I mean today I have arranged my lesson for tomorrow! I'm going to make it special because my lovely student will say good bye to me soon...:( Sad and delighted I feel about it. That's life. Someone comes into your life, someone leaves. That's how it is.  So, I'm excited about my bright idea of the lesson. Let's see if it works! 

I'm really grateful for my being able to click a lot during the day. It's a pity I can't 'click' with my legs, in that case they'd be so attractively slim and lively. :D

I'm grateful for my day. For having enough strength to smile even when the morning seemed dull. And I was lucky today. One person made me laugh my head off. Absolutely. Well, life is marvellous when there are people who can make you laugh.

Rain, Rain, Rain...

Rain...you don't always come when I need you. Today you really spoilt my happy time...But on the other hand, it was nice to see you, to feel your emotions of sadness. You have somehow washed some of my sad thoughts away. I still have my illusions. They somehow make me happier. Like the sunrays through your tears that are rolling down your cheeks...

This Monday I have lived another life. 24 hours of breathing, filled with laughter, eye and fingers' work, and memories. My memories are happy but they are also bitter in  a way.


This afternoon I received a letter. Well, an email that may mean a new page in my life...I don't know where it will lead me to. But I feel like it's another window I should open. It's tricky. It's somehow closed. But I will use all my strength to do so. ;)
I'm grateful for my waiting and for this spring thundertorm that was patient with me today. :)

                Expected / Unexpected Joys

It is really cool when your dream or any little wish comes true, falls straight into your palms. That doesn't happen that often. Or at least it usually takes some time and a huge bottle of patience before this magical moment actually comes true. 

Today some of my wishes did not come true. Or they did...but in an unexpected way. Well, that sounds confusing but not bad. ;) 

I'm grateful for having my joy the way it was - imperfect in some ways but perfect for me. ;)
Well, I know I speak like a spy. :D But some of my personal events I can't really describe yet. ;) Not yet!


Anyway - I'm grateful for some new friends I have made today and for my student who cleaned the dusty shelves of my brain. I'm grateful for my chocolate moment. For my peaceful day. For no worries. For my patient friend. For my dearest people who care of me no matter what kind of crazy mood I have. ;)