New Start - New Hopes - New Dreams

Today I have again refreshed my ideas, my dusty intentions. Yesterday is gone. It was my past I cannot change but should I? I'm grateful to my yesterday for its happy moments, tears of hope and exciting seconds of green joy. (What a confusing sentence, huh? ;)) 

I'm thankful for being able so far to think of my new start. Without my past. It's not maybe going to be easy at times. But I'm determined. I really am. I have new dreams as well. ;) I'm happy to devote my time and strength to someone who might really need it. I hope I'll be able to make someone's life brighter. That's my mission - to be useful, to be someone who'll make you smile. :)

I'm grateful for my long day, for my hope that tomorrow I'll open my eyes and see something I even never dreamt of - my real happiness that is eternal. :) I hope so much! 

                      My Joys and Sorrows 

I had to make a pause. I didn't post here for several days. It is not as if I had no reasons for a smile. I simply had to have a getaway into my inner world. There were some things I had to think about. But now I'm back. With my joys. My little sorrows as well that make cherish my happy moments even more. So, let me make a little list of joys I've felt since Sunday:

1. I'm grateful for the last cold kiss of winter. It was snowing heavily here and for some moments I felt like December was back...but what really makes my heart warm is that it is the last goodbye message of winter..
2. I'm grateful for my diligent student who made me feel better these tough days. I don't know how he managed but thanks to him I forgot all my troubles for a while.
3. I'm grateful for honesty. It hurts at times. But it's like a hidden wound. You won't ever be able to heal it if you don't use any medicine..even let it be very unpleasant. The truth doesn't always make one smile but it makes you stronger, it makes you come on the ground and rethink some things. That's what I've done. 
4. I'm grateful for my dear female friend who has spent many hours with me, listening to me. It's so great to have someone who can listen to your rubbish...:D
5. I'm grateful for talking with Alan Dean last night. He is a BBC correspondent. We talked about my recent happiness and sorrows. I really felt myself in London! And  Alan somehow inspired me to keep on dreaming. Again - it's great to have Skype and People who can LISTEN to what I say...even if it makes so real sense.

I'm grateful for coming back. For the truth. For a new start. For the sunshine.

P.S. I'll keep you posted about any new joys I might have today! :)

                               In Rio

Today I have spiritually visited a wonderful place on Earth - Rio de Janeiro! ;)

My dear friend from Brazil sent me some nice souvenirs that made me feel myself in Rio...I just closed my eyes and imagined myself there, enjoying the warm sunrays...

I'm feeling really cheered up today. It's amazing how someone can change your mood, your day, your life.
I'm really grateful for my dear far away beloved brother! I'm grateful for managing to help my dear pupil today. It was so nice to see her understanding some tricky English grammar...That gives me so much strength to go on!!!

I am thankful for a piece of Rio in my room and heart now...;)

                               Silence

Today I'm grateful for silence. Yes. I mean for the silence in my soul. It's so stormy outside but it's silent and cosy inside me. I hope it will soon be not just inside me but outside, everywhere around. I'm grateful for a surprise that is awaiting me tomorrow! ;) Waiting is another sort of happiness, isn't it? 

     Dancing Bees, Cat in My Arms and the               Spring in My Hair

I think SHE has arrived. I mean spring. I call her in Ukrainian "she' because there is certainly something female about this beautiful season, don't you think so? 
This day I have sort of escaped from my every day cabinet fever. I simply set my mind spiders free...;)

Our garden...spring is slowly painting...

It has been perhaps the first time this year I have forgotten about all my recent losses and problems. I just enjoyed the sunbathing, smelling the spring in the air, with my eyes sinking into the blue endless and clouds-free sky. 

The firsr March flowers...

I had the time of my life to pat our big but still childish dog Kissa, hold our neighbour's snowwhite kitty and admire dancing bees around the first flowers....

              This short video from our garden can hopefully make you feel what I have felt today...something marvellous!!!

                                          This lovely kitty was purring in my arms today...

I'm grateful for my moments of joy today. I am happy to feel God's love in this beauty of nature He let me see today. I'm grateful for my dear little frienfds - my dog and the neighbour's cat who love me just for what I am...I'm grateful for being just 26 years old this time...and for this blue moment I will remember forever...

                               Hope

Have you ever had this feeling like you need someone so much but this person is away and there is no way to contact him\her? I believe almost everyone has experienced that tricky situation. 

I have lost some very dear people to me this year. Their voices are still in my ears, on my mind. I miss them. Never thought I would. Thanks to God, I somehow manage to keep my sad thoughts away while translating something or teaching. I'm happy to be busy these days. 

Today I enjoyed completing some of my long-awaited tasks. It is funny but for some urgent things there is no time. Time is a really mysterious thing. It always slips away. I can hardly catch its tail. But sometimes I can somehow follow it, almost running. 

I'm thankful for spending some time with my family today. My dad has come back home. I could share some of my joys with him. It was so nice to see joy in his eyes. 

I miss some people. Some of them I won't see in our world anymore. Some I may still see one day. No idea. But I'm happy to have had and still have them in my life. 
I'm grateful for this unexpected strength I had today. I'm grateful for my hope. It's great to hope even if there is no evidence of your hope...

                        A Warm Hello

This day I received a warm hello from my far away friend who's like a brother to me. I felt really happy. It's great to feel myself needed and cared for. 

I have enjoyed a wonderful talk with another friend of mine. It always feels warm and so cosy to speak with him. 
I'm happy I have "survived" my hyper-active student! ;) I even turned into her teacher of music for five minutes. ;)

I'm grateful for this invisible thread of people who care of me even though they don't have a chance to see me so far. I'm honoured to be in their thoughts and prayers. Life is great when you see someone close to you  even let it be miles and oceans away.