Good Bye Joy

I can't lie and tell you that I love saying goodbye. I usually hate it. I'm not good at it. I have never attended any goodbye courses. :(

Today I am grateful for saying goodbye. One of my devoted students came to say goodbye. And even though I'm sad we won't have any lessons together anymore, I'm filled with pride and joy to see her now, her new world I am a part of. I really hope she'll be happy. I look forward to seeing her bright career. I have no doubts she'll do her very best. :)


Goodbye is heartbreaking...but each single goodbye carries a candle of hope about the next meeting...:)

                       Warm-Hearted Joy

Today I am touched and happy. I'm grateful for having some people in my life. They have made me believe in kindness again. They have helped me today. I did not want to accept their help. I don't feel like I am someone who "must" be helped. As long as I can move somehow around and bring some bacon home...why should I be assisted? But my joy was not ruined...It can be compared with an evergreen garden in my heart...and a rainbow across the sky...

It is a real miracle to feel someone's warm heart. It's a message that we are loved. It is a sign of Love that is waiting for us all above...its short SMS....

If you ask me, I prefer to give than to accept...than to take...I am happy when I can give myself 100%. Without any change...without anything left for myself. That makes me feel somehow complete...Today I have learnt another joy...joy of accepting. Of being helped. Of realizing how warm-hearted people are sometimes...It's what can never be measured. It can only be felt. If your beating motor can feel at all...and I am sure it can. ;) Just listen to it....good? ;)

                 The Light Miles Away

Today I had my second hot day...:) I was walking on air to refresh my boiling blood with some ice-cream...

Thanks to my good friend I forgot about my hot isolation. :D Our serious cooperation inspired my lazy sleepy brain cells for some activities. :)

This evening I went out. I looked up. I saw my old friend. My star. A big and bright one... I wonder if this star can ever see the light of my eyes...will it ever reach it? But I sent it my message...I just asked it to care for someone who's also miles away. Someone I may never meet...or...maybe...maybe maybe...

It's wonderful to feel yourself so small in this huge universe but to be cared for...It's a real miracle to feel this deep connection to something and someone so far away...So nice to see the light...even if your own light will reach it in millions of years....

              HOT Happiness...:)

Well, I'm melting....sweating and feeling like getting rid of anything warm, my clothes included. :D But since I'm honoured to live in our developed society I have to obey its strict rules. 

That means: clothes on, keeping a fresh smile and looking cool....What made me cool down a bit is a friend of mine who was wearing his warm pair of socks...:D Well, that's cute...

I'm grateful for this hot day. I was dreaming of this hot breezing when cold winter was cuddling me with its frozen arms...My dream has come true. My lungs find it tricky to dance their usual waltz but happiness often makes you feel the same...No oxygen...just joy...that is more than just breathing. :)

SILLY JoY

Guess what? Joys can be pretty silly. Like a spoon of ice-cream. Or like "call click"...:)

This Tuesday I had enjoyed being a fool a bit. :D I don't want to go into "colourful" details, my dear nosy readers...:P What can I tell you? I had my minute of weakness. I usually hate it...but today I have managed to smile at myself....I'm grateful for my silly moment. This makes me feel awkward but I'm happy people around don't mind my moment of being a fool...:D

Apricots in My Hands, in My Mouth and Even in My Hair...:P

This Monday I had an extra apricot joy...I had the time of my life by eating sunny apricots and speaking to my friends who're miles away from  me. 

I'm grateful for my lazy day I spent the way I wanted. For smiling a lot. For this June day that will always stay in my hair...:)

                       Trinity Day

I'm grateful for this great Christian holiday. For this blessing to wake up with the sun and go to church. For this heaven-like fragrance of herbs in church, my home and in my hair...:)

I'm grateful for my day with my family. For our happy TV watching together. 

I'm grateful for my dear friend who just never misses a chance to make me smile. ;)

Life can be beautiful. And it's even more beautiful when you stop and look around...Try it out! ;)

Seeing You Again Joy (Saturday)

This Saturday I am grateful for seeing my father back home. For his patience with pain he has to fight with.
I'm grateful for those rare moments of being together...

Honey Honey Everywhere....:) Or my Thank You Letter to Friday...:)

Hi Friday,

I hope you are happy to see me. ;) I know your name makes so many people feel delighted because of your coming brother Saturday....For me you're just another working day before another working 24 hours...:) But I am grateful for you today. 

I'm grateful for my honey day. Today I have been especially sweet. :) I have eaten lots of honey. It has miraculously happened that we have bought some honey and some of our friends have brought some as a present. :D That's unbelievable! I never imagined that you, my dear Friday, could be so sweet...I am thankful to you for sending me someone who made me smile. :) I think we're getting on well with you today....:)

I'm grateful for seeing some new places today. For seeing some of my dear people. I'm grateful for this longest day of the year...I'm grateful to you, Friday...I hope to see you in a week...and I really hope you'll bring me something sweet again! :)

Yours truly, 
Daria (Dasha)

                               Life in My Hair!

This Thursday I am grateful for being alive...well, I can be (and should be!) grateful for it every day, actually...But I just forget everytime what a miracle it is for me to be alive today...So, this day I have felt like never before how great it is to be alive...to love and to smile without any reason...

I was biking and...suddenly I felt wind touching my plaits...and it was like someone's sign, this far away hello...this symbol of someone's love...I was moving fast. I was sinking my eyes into the blue sky....I was following some clouds....I was listening to some music and felt happy. Just complete. Alive. And butterflies of hope. 


I'm grateful for this life in my hair, for my happiness, for my smiles. For my motor inside that is standing my crazy thinking device...:P

              On Cloud...Nine? ;)

Well, what does my title mean? If you understand some English idioms, a play of words you might guess...or try to do that at least! ;)

I am grateful for my two very devoted students I'm endlessly proud of! They struggle a lot to achieve the best resulst...I'm happy to be a piece of their joy. I'm happy I can forget my own sorrows and join their happy wave. :) I'm simply happy I am useful today. 

I'm also grateful for my new friend who sent me a wonderful picture of his motherland...I'm happy to meet this new world! :) Every person is a new world to me. :) 

I'm grateful for my good friend whose amazing sense of humour makes me forget about all daily issues. :) If he knew how often he saved me from my own thunderstorms...

I'm grateful for my happy moment of today. For our pleasant weather. For my silly dreams. For my father's slow recovery. For my prayers that are answered. Thank you...

Morning Hello from the Seaside and the Sunshine in my Hands...

The start of this week was really unusual for me. My alarm clock tried its very best to bring me back from my dreamland...but my wish to stay there was stronger than it's morning song...Soon I did have to jump out of my bed because of my little chatterbox friend - my mobile phone...I saw an uknown number...I was confused...thought of ignoring it...but then decided to give it a try....and guess who was that? It was my former little student! He just wanted to tell me about his seaside adventures...I was touched to hear his happy news and feel a part of his thoughts. I was sitting on the floor, listening to his stories...

I'm grateful for this phone call. It may seem really weird but this little talk made my day....

Later that day I had a lively catching up with  a friend of mine. It was really nice to see his face and practise some crazy brainstorm issues. :D I am grateful for this puzzle that keeps my brain boiling! :D

This day I also went to our garden and ate apricots straight from the tree...It felt like I was holding and eating the sunshine! I am a real apricots' lover! ;) Well, it doesn't matter that later on I had a stomache storm..:P What really and ever matters is I am happy, with the sunshine in my heart. :)

                                       This video was made by my mom in our garden

                             My New Joys 

I am really sorry I did not keep you posted with my daily joys last week. It in no ways means that I had no joys. My week was very nice: full of work, new people and even a new discovery. So, let me share some of my joys with you:

I am grateful to my good friend who spent some of his life time and shared some of his native landscape with me. It fills me with so much joy to realize how lucky I am to have such a friend who wishes to bring me some happiness, to make my day really special! :) Even if my day's rainy and dull.

I'm grateful for my two of my new students who came to me as a real miracle. Truly speaking, I had some sort of silent time with teaching. Most students are still talking their finals now, so the number of my students has decreased. Now with my dad's health condition I really feel like working a bit more. It's not just duty or responsibility. It's what I am happy to do as long as I am able to. I have no idea how long. But I hope long enough until my dad is healthy again and can come back to work. So, I'm grateful to God for sending me two unique students! One is a lady who does not know a single English word but who is leaving abroad pretty soon, so she needs something intensive...so even though I feel scared to teach someone so fresh, I did grab that chance. It's some new experience for me too. And now my heart is singing when I hear her English qustions...I love it! Let it be broken or with lots of mistakes...her dedication alone makes me feel happy and hopeful. I'm also excited about my new student who came from abroad. I've been teaching him both - English and German. It's tricky. But I enjoy it. It's simply wonderful to show him the light in this dark corridor  of two foreign languages.

I'm grateful for my little friend, a black raven my mom picked up some days ago. He was not really able to fly, was hopping on the ground...so my mom decided it'd be a good idea to help him...so we happily fed him for three days. We gave him boiled fish and eggs. We were even trying to teach him/her to speak...and he /she did pronounce sounds! ;) Soon, though I could not stand his cage staying...I know what freedom means. How great it is to be free. And how awful it is to have no hope, no space to stretch your wings...So, we took him/her back...home...and he was soooooo happy to "fly away"....Yeah...he could already use his wings...

I miss him/her but I'm happy to realize that he/she is free....I'm grateful for my freedom. For moving around the way I can. I'm happy to give freedom to someone who must be always free. Birds can't be kept in cages. It's not right. It's not fair. If you have wings, you should fly....

I'm grateful for my blessed Sunday. For my hope. For my piece of freedom. For the rainy clouds. For catching raindrops into my palms. It feels so nice! Like catching loving tears...
I'm grateful for someone who was waiting for  me. For my silly joy. 

I'm grateful for our cherries and apricots' season. I'm grateful for my open window and some fresh air coming my way now. I'm grateful for my lovely female friend who supports my crazy ideas. :D I'm grateful for my new ideas. Some of them are very strange...BUT who knows? Maybe a bit of craziness is what makes our life happier? ;)

I'm now going to hit the sack, to slowly fall into a different reality of my dreams. 

                               FREE

I dream of more freedom. Freedom of movements. I dream of destroying all my obstacles. I do not only mean some artificial barriers my feet cannot overcome. I also mean my fears. My fear of seeming silly. Worse than I want to seem. Unable. Good for nothing. I know it all sounds silly. Too childish. That is not easy to say "I don't know this" or "I cannot do that". It's so hard to say "not"...And it's a real problem to say good bye to some of my fears. I dream of getting rid of many of them. I dream of cleaning my blonde head from that rubbish that makes my life complicated. What makes my world rainy.

Today I sort of looked into my fear's eyes...I almost punched it...I say almost because I did not really do that. Just closed tightly my own eyes. Just covered my ears. Just ignored it. And...I believe I'm on my way to lose my bad enemy...my fear. My fear of being myself. The way I am. Accepting me as I am. To hide my neat Daria version and show my real one. The one who's weak and strong. Who can also fall and fail. ;) Who does not always smile. Whose eyes shine with tears sometimes too.

I'm grateful for my moment of being me. Just me. And I hope one day I will just scare all my fears away...:D Too far away....somewhere I can never find them again....:)

P.S. I am sorry for my confusing lines. I just can't really describe what I really feel or experience. It's another chapter of a complicated book called "Daria"...:)

              Holding Summer by Hand...

I'm grateful for my little miracles today. I had some nice dreams. I saw myself travelling by train.  So, my waking up was nice. :)

And...later this day I did travel by train virtually a bit thanks to my adventurous friend who made it possible. Sure, it's not the same fun as  a real train trip but I did have my portion of joy. 

I'm grateful for hearing my dad who sounded cheerful today. I'm even grateful for his football match on TV tonight. That means he is my dad...who loves football, this game I see no sense in...;)

I'm grateful for this wonderful summer I can see and touch around. I'm grateful for being able to go outside without any assistance and putting on tons of heavy clothes. :)
I'm grateful for  a nice evening with my mom, for laughing together. For this evening we spent with our favourite movie. 

I sometimes want more than I have. But I try to be grateful for what I already have. And I have a lot. I have my reasons to smile about. I have what makes me wake up every day. I have my dreams. I have my hopes. Maybe some of them are silly. But...it's just a big puzzle that is called "happiness"...

Joy Through Tears

Today my greatest reason for being grateful is that my dad did survive his surgery. It's too early to say if he did it successfully but at least he's awake, called me and tried to joke...I know he's in much pain, I could feel it from his voice. 
I'm grateful for this morning call. For my dad being alive. There are many challenging moments we'll have to overcome. But we will do it. I'll do my best.

I'm also grateful for my students who took my sad reflections away. Like the sunrays...

I'm grateful for being virtually in  a wonderful forest. I was kindly invited there by my good friend who just clicked on "call" and made see that miracles of birds singing...

I'm grateful for my tears of joy. I'm grateful for my prayers to be answered. I'm grateful to be heard.

Skype Teaching, the Ocean of Flowers, Lost in Translation, Greenland...

Today the sky was crying all day long. It was still romantic to be woken up with the melody of the raindrops. 

I'm grateful for my new student. And I'm grateful for using skype as our classroom! What I am impressed by is my dear student who seems to know more than I could ever expect. She and I have our dreams. So, we had the loveliest rainy lesson ever. :)

I'm grateful for my dear friend whom I don't know at all but who keeps on planting a real beautifil garden of flowers on my facebook page! :) I hope he'll read this message and will smile now. ;-) The way I always do when I open my page and see a real ocean of beauty...I'm now spoiled! :D 

I'm grateful for my patient friend who gave me some useful translation tips! I'm endlessly grateful for his great talent to wait for me...And for his kindness that warms my heart very deeply.

I'm grateful for some fresh carrots I ate today. I mean they were straight from our garden.

I'm grateful for my good friend who again made my evening extra special by showing some of his native land. I don't know how he did it but for some minutes I did escape from my sad thoughts. 

My dad's going to undergo a surgery tomorrow. If you can, keep him in your prayers, please! I really hope he'll face it bravely. 

Today I am grateful for having everyone in my life. Even people who drive me crazy. Eventually they teach me a lot and give me more than I could imagine. I'm grateful for my sadness because it will make my joy even bigger one day. 

Lviv in My Hands, Rainbow and Thermometer Joy! ;)

This Tuesday would be just boring...but nope! ;) This time Tuesday decided to use some makeup. ;) I mean it figurately. ;) My Tuesday was bright. Even though it was rainy. Heaven was crying again...and then again smiling through its tears rolling down along its cheeks...

I'm grateful for my good friend who was travelling to the place I'm in love with - Lviv....I was surprised to receive  a postcard from him today. That was like I could touch / grasp Lviv again...breathed in chocolate and coffee air...I even felt like I was there...back...my warm memories of travelling to this wonderful place is still warming my heart!

I'm grateful for my dear guide who spent much effort and time to show me some things around his home place. It was  a virtual trip, sometimes the connection failed and it seemed like it was over...BUT NO...My friend was determined enough to overcome all those little issues and make me see what I could never see in my rainy room today. ;) And the greatest miracle is...I even saw a big rainbow there...on his side!!! I was speechless. Didn't know what I could say. I was just happy. When you're happy, you're lost for words or can say something silly. :P So, I was just enjoying my happy trip around. :)

And...I'm also grateful for my dear friend who visited me this evening and brought me his self-made device - a thermometer! Now I can always tell you how "hot" it is at my place of the world...:D Right now it is just 20C! I'm touched to have such  a special gift.:) Hand-made gifts are always the best. They somehow carry a piece of someone who made them. :)

I'm grateful for everything. For my talk with my dad on the phone. He's now on his way to the hospital. I hope he'll be well again soon. I hope his recovery will be my next reason for joy...

I'm grateful for listening to the raindrops today. It's a real symphony of Heavens...

Dressed to Teeth, Breathtaking Paintings, Walking on Air or a Grey Beard Joy...

I bet the title of my joy made you all wonder. Probably confused. Or maybe you can sadly confess to yourselves "Poor Daria...what has her blog brought her to"....:D 

Allright, let me clear things out for you. Let me open the curtains of my mysterious joys...

First I'm really grateful for my dentist! She's a lovely person who made me forget about any fears! Although I can't say my visit was free of pains, I still felt delighted. It was like coming back home. I was surprised to see a new face of the clinic and a new hairstyle of my dentist! And what I feel blessed for is that my teeth will keep on cracking nuts in the near future! ;) That's what I'm happy about!!! ;)

Secondly, I'm grateful for a black-haired, big-hearted and truly gifted miracle I met today. I visited my friend on my way home from the clinic. She is my new friend. An amazing artist who is a real miracle to me. Her name is Marianna. She's a wonder girl. I don't want to go into details but her life is not easy for an ordinary citizen of our planet. She has some very severe physical challenges. I felt shy to think about my challenges...Well, I hate to compare but maybe for the first time ever I realised how much I can and how much I should cherish my pieces of freedom, like moving around my house, doing some every day activities without anyone's assistance. Marianna cannot do many things by herself. But perhaps she can do more than she can imagine. She can capture people's hearts forever. She can make you see what you never saw before. She can make you see her world that is amazingly beautiful, full of colours and sun.  Full of love. Her flat is like a real museum. I think I could even smell it. Her world of colours and shades. Her deep look opened my mind. I feel very blessed to know her. We were surprised to find how many things in common we have. Two hours I spent in her lovely company just flew in some moments...It was funny to meet her sweet little friend (a cute Guinea pig). I'm honoured to spend that time of my life with her. Someone I did not have to look up at. Someone who was just as tall as me. :P That was also something new to me. I'm sure this new friendship will be the start of something really new in my life. 

                       Marianna and me

Thirdly, I'm grateful for all my abilities. For everything I can do. For my fast moving around. For being independent in many aspects of my life. For the fact that I don't even realise how lucky I am...

And finally...I don't have any grey beard. :D Well, I shave regularly...:P Well, just kidding...(you may understand that's a tricky joy...haha). I'm grateful for our taxi driver. He's an old man, with a nice grey beard...But he was like a magician, joking, sharing his good mood with us. I love such people so much!

I'm also grateful for my dear good friend who despite some technical issues tried to brighten up my calm evening! :)

I'm grateful. And I am happy. And...I look forward to more joys!

                          Rainy Weekends

The sky was in tears. It was crying for someone maybe. Or maybe sky can also cry for happiness. There were moments in my life when I cried for happiness. It's different. It can never be described. It is when your happiness is so big it overflows from you, shining out from the rainbow of your tears...

My weekend was quiet. No students. No guests. Many moments of thoughts, some work. 
Maybe I could say it was absolutely boring but it was not thanks to my friends who keep me smiling! I'm grateful for people who despite being far away physically make my present happy. 

 I'm grateful for a rain-free Sunday morning, for enjoying a lovely path to the church. For feeling close to Heaven. For the birds dancing in the air. I'm grateful for my early wake up. I'm grateful for just being. For my being sad and happy. That's funny. But sometimes sadness and happiness are really mixed. Like starts behind the heavy clouds...