Tulips, First Sunbathing and Feeling Alive

Today my feelings a mixed. I feel filled with joy when I look at our first tulips, this endless blue sky, flying birds fighting for their nests and bees flying with their baskets of honey around. Today I have even enjoyed my first sunbathing session! ;) My cheeks are a bit red now. ;) The only thing that makes me feel bitter is this sad Chornobyl memory day...27th spring of our great national wound. It is really difficult to see this great contrast - this unspoken beauty and this deep pain...

I still have some reasons for joy even today. I'm grateful for my life - for staying alive so far. I'm grateful for my dear ones who are around, caring of me. I'm grateful for my friend who kept his word and sent me the link of some Chornobyl documentary. I am touched to feel not alone. I am happy people remember. I just hope this tragedy will keep on uniting us, making us stronger. 

It's my 27th spring. A bit different. I still miss my teacher who's gone forever. I can't fill this emptiness in my heart. But I will try to look for new joys. And if God lets me, I'll hopefully show people around some more reasons of staying cheerful and happy.