FREE

I dream of more freedom. Freedom of movements. I dream of destroying all my obstacles. I do not only mean some artificial barriers my feet cannot overcome. I also mean my fears. My fear of seeming silly. Worse than I want to seem. Unable. Good for nothing. I know it all sounds silly. Too childish. That is not easy to say "I don't know this" or "I cannot do that". It's so hard to say "not"...And it's a real problem to say good bye to some of my fears. I dream of getting rid of many of them. I dream of cleaning my blonde head from that rubbish that makes my life complicated. What makes my world rainy.

Today I sort of looked into my fear's eyes...I almost punched it...I say almost because I did not really do that. Just closed tightly my own eyes. Just covered my ears. Just ignored it. And...I believe I'm on my way to lose my bad enemy...my fear. My fear of being myself. The way I am. Accepting me as I am. To hide my neat Daria version and show my real one. The one who's weak and strong. Who can also fall and fail. ;) Who does not always smile. Whose eyes shine with tears sometimes too.

I'm grateful for my moment of being me. Just me. And I hope one day I will just scare all my fears away...:D Too far away....somewhere I can never find them again....:)

P.S. I am sorry for my confusing lines. I just can't really describe what I really feel or experience. It's another chapter of a complicated book called "Daria"...:)