My Rainy Monday....

Honestly speaking I don't like these endless September rains. I feel stuck in my room. I feel like a disharged battery. I long for the sun...I know it's somewhere above - just behind these heavy sky blankets. But...alas! I can't reach it, cannot feel it. Only dream of it. That's what I have to do. Spend my time. Work. And...dream away. To my warm August days which slipped away. Forever. But I am happy about my summer. It was good. And my warm memories are forever with me. :) That comforts me. :) I'm a greedy memory holder! :D (I am sorry for my strange English! It must sound upside down!).

I'm grateful for my rainy day. For my good friend who made me feel sunnier. For being able to smile through my window that is covered with sky's bitter tears...

The Rain on My Cheeks

This Sunday I somehow managed to wake up early - in this silent darkness of my room. I went to church. On my way back I was caught by September rain. I felt some raindrops on my cheeks. It made me feel sad and happy. Both. Right away. 

The sky was crying. Maybe that was a message. Maybe. I don't know. I was happily walking home. To my warm nest. To my hot cup of tea waiting. To people who think the world of me. 

I'm grateful for being able to enjoy these last more or less warm days. For this rain. For feeling it on my cheeks. For feeling. It's better than to be a heartless piece of wood...

                             I am Here...

It is very important to be "here" even when I am miles and oceans away. I am happy to feel connected with people I care about. I don't know if they all need my "I'm here" but...I'm happy to be "here" whenever they want and need it.
Today I went to church and that was the first time ever I didn't see our priest since he has fallen seriously sick. It's very sad. But I was thinking of him while putting my candle. I hope he could feel that "I'm here".

I'm grateful for this autumn day. For my sleepy Saturday. For my autumn walk. For my warm blanket and some ice-cream. :D I'm grateful for some laughing moments with my parents. I'm grateful for a lovely conversation with my good friend. I'm grateful for needing some people. They are not always around the way I wish they were. But they are "here". Straight in my heart. Forever. It doesn't matter if they want it or not. :P I'm selfish here. I keep them inside my heart, mind and all my cells. ;) I wish I could always keep them away from any sorrows and be their sunshine when they feel gloomy. Well, I'm not always as positive as I may seem. But...whenever I think of people I do care about I feel nothing but a great ray of sunshine in my heart. 

                       Hand in Hand 

I'm grateful for my dad's hand. It's almost recovered. It is not really flexible yet, and he'll probably need some more months to make it as functional as it used to be but he can hold everything he couldn't for the past three months! He can hold my hand...:)

I'm grateful for having my hand in his hand. I'm grateful for God's help. For my friends who have been supporting me all this time. :) I'm grateful for hearing a smile of my dear friend on the phone. :) I'm grateful for being able to stand my long Friday. :) I'm alive. :)

Walking in the Rain....

These past days my mom and I had some crazy walks....in the rain. We were enjoying our short evening going out to our local train station.....In the Rain...Crossing big puddles of water...and I had a real impression like I was driving upon the sky...and tearful clouds...just like that!

 On our way I was stroking little calves who were childishly watching me and...then licking my palms...maybe they wanted to be a part of my life...I was sad to think of their future...and wishing we could be friends...real. Then when we came to the station we would see lonely figures of people waiting for their train to the city...standing in the drizzling rain...with their heads down...there was a girl who was seeing her boyfriend off...holding his hand. In the rain. And there were lots of free birds flying and singing in the rain. And the most beautiful picture of all- rainy clouds...this sky's blanket...Then the train approached...this snake...I feel extremely thrilled whenever I see a train. I am mad about its sound. I'm in love with it. I am born to be a traveller...it sucks to sit when my soul would just get inside that train...ahhhh....maybe one day...maybe. :) 

Our way back was silent. We were eating nuts. I was admiring the bright full moon that got stuck in the yellow tree.
I'm grateful for these rainy September evenings. For the raindrops on my palm. For coming back home. For my peppermint cup of tea. And for coming and finding that I was waited by someone online...That's happiness...

Tea Party Joy...or My Visit to The Club of Great Equal Abilities...:)

One cloudy Tuesday I went to a club my dear friend invited me a long time ago. It's placed inside a Jewish center. I was very curious to see it inside. I was thrilled about its elevator..:D I rarely enjoy elevetor rides...so that was a good reason to feel glad about! :)
As soon as I entered this building and met some girls on our way I felt like I knew everyone. It's a weird feeling. It only meant that I probably met the same easy-going and crazy dreamers the way I am myself...:)
That was a every unique opportunity for me to be among people whose physical abilities are limited but whose dreams have the biggest wings ever! :) I was happy to drink my cup of tea with sweets and discuss every day issues, talk of everything and nothing at the same time....

Here are my new friends - Inessa, Ksenia, Artem, a pretty girl (no idea of her name, oops!), Valya, her son Sergey, my sweet friend Marianna and my mom ...and our tea party! ;)

It can be that this meeting is the start of some new disability projects in my city. It can be that my voice could be heard one day. I don't really mean being filthy rich and famous! :D Hehe..I mean that hopefully one day people here  will see something more than my wheelchair and deformed body. I hope so. Even if it's naive to believe in it. I am a dreamer. So I have my excuse. :)

                                    Me and Marianna...with our...hmmm....new funny friend...:)


This same day I also had my greatest pleasure to visit Marianna's warm place. It was the third time I've visited her this year. I felt myself really at home thanks to Marianna's and her mom's kind hospitality. I enjoyed playing with her little pet named Kipusya (Guinea pig!). Marianna and I enjoyed some square delicious lunch and ....my diet had to be put off when I saw a yummy piece of a cheesecake! :D We were watching a movie, sharing our thoughts, holding tears back... and thinking of our big Universe...of being human beings...of love, faith and real friendship. :) 

My way back home was full of thoughts through the darkness. When we finally came back home I found a long-awaited letter with pictures from my dear friend. My heart was jumping for joy to see his little daughter! ;)
Then my day ended on skype...sharing my thoughts, my joys and me...

I'm grateful for having my day out, for meeting positive and warm-hearted people and for happy coincidences...happy events that usually turn into something great...something really wonderful. :)

Hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My JOYS are BACK! 

Perhaps you've had a mad idea that your friend Daria had finally run out of joys...:D No Way! I was just trying to survive in my ocean of work! I was sometimes in its very depth, keeping my head above the water, chasing some sharks away....:D But...I've survived!!! :) And now I'll try to refresh my blog's room, to sweep all the webs away... the problem is....could you just give me a hand and "welcome" spiders back outside since I can do nothing but scream whenever I see them?...:) I hope now you can breathe in easily, can't you? :)

The Summer is Gone...I'll miss it...forever. It was a very special time. The time when I was dreaming away. Some of my dreams came true, some did not really...But I am a hopeless dreamer...Still. :D

My last summer evening I spent outside. With my mama. With my second "flesh" as one of friends described one evening. :P We kindled a fire and took some ice cream...:D That was the way we said good bye to our sweet summer of 2013...The autumn did knock on our doors that very evening...so, I had to warm my old bones with our lovely neighbour's cat...:) 

I'm grateful for my summer I will always keep in my heart. I'm grateful for my plate of ice-cream and the best heater ever - a snow white kitty gently purring into my ear...I'm grateful for all my magical summer moments. For meeting some new people. For learning something new. For my peace. For my mosquito free time and for a really amazing choir of cicadas...