New Start - New Hopes - New Dreams

Today I have again refreshed my ideas, my dusty intentions. Yesterday is gone. It was my past I cannot change but should I? I'm grateful to my yesterday for its happy moments, tears of hope and exciting seconds of green joy. (What a confusing sentence, huh? ;)) 

I'm thankful for being able so far to think of my new start. Without my past. It's not maybe going to be easy at times. But I'm determined. I really am. I have new dreams as well. ;) I'm happy to devote my time and strength to someone who might really need it. I hope I'll be able to make someone's life brighter. That's my mission - to be useful, to be someone who'll make you smile. :)

I'm grateful for my long day, for my hope that tomorrow I'll open my eyes and see something I even never dreamt of - my real happiness that is eternal. :) I hope so much! 

                      My Joys and Sorrows 

I had to make a pause. I didn't post here for several days. It is not as if I had no reasons for a smile. I simply had to have a getaway into my inner world. There were some things I had to think about. But now I'm back. With my joys. My little sorrows as well that make cherish my happy moments even more. So, let me make a little list of joys I've felt since Sunday:

1. I'm grateful for the last cold kiss of winter. It was snowing heavily here and for some moments I felt like December was back...but what really makes my heart warm is that it is the last goodbye message of winter..
2. I'm grateful for my diligent student who made me feel better these tough days. I don't know how he managed but thanks to him I forgot all my troubles for a while.
3. I'm grateful for honesty. It hurts at times. But it's like a hidden wound. You won't ever be able to heal it if you don't use any medicine..even let it be very unpleasant. The truth doesn't always make one smile but it makes you stronger, it makes you come on the ground and rethink some things. That's what I've done. 
4. I'm grateful for my dear female friend who has spent many hours with me, listening to me. It's so great to have someone who can listen to your rubbish...:D
5. I'm grateful for talking with Alan Dean last night. He is a BBC correspondent. We talked about my recent happiness and sorrows. I really felt myself in London! And  Alan somehow inspired me to keep on dreaming. Again - it's great to have Skype and People who can LISTEN to what I say...even if it makes so real sense.

I'm grateful for coming back. For the truth. For a new start. For the sunshine.

P.S. I'll keep you posted about any new joys I might have today! :)

                               In Rio

Today I have spiritually visited a wonderful place on Earth - Rio de Janeiro! ;)

My dear friend from Brazil sent me some nice souvenirs that made me feel myself in Rio...I just closed my eyes and imagined myself there, enjoying the warm sunrays...

I'm feeling really cheered up today. It's amazing how someone can change your mood, your day, your life.
I'm really grateful for my dear far away beloved brother! I'm grateful for managing to help my dear pupil today. It was so nice to see her understanding some tricky English grammar...That gives me so much strength to go on!!!

I am thankful for a piece of Rio in my room and heart now...;)

                               Silence

Today I'm grateful for silence. Yes. I mean for the silence in my soul. It's so stormy outside but it's silent and cosy inside me. I hope it will soon be not just inside me but outside, everywhere around. I'm grateful for a surprise that is awaiting me tomorrow! ;) Waiting is another sort of happiness, isn't it? 

     Dancing Bees, Cat in My Arms and the               Spring in My Hair

I think SHE has arrived. I mean spring. I call her in Ukrainian "she' because there is certainly something female about this beautiful season, don't you think so? 
This day I have sort of escaped from my every day cabinet fever. I simply set my mind spiders free...;)

Our garden...spring is slowly painting...

It has been perhaps the first time this year I have forgotten about all my recent losses and problems. I just enjoyed the sunbathing, smelling the spring in the air, with my eyes sinking into the blue endless and clouds-free sky. 

The firsr March flowers...

I had the time of my life to pat our big but still childish dog Kissa, hold our neighbour's snowwhite kitty and admire dancing bees around the first flowers....

              This short video from our garden can hopefully make you feel what I have felt today...something marvellous!!!

                                          This lovely kitty was purring in my arms today...

I'm grateful for my moments of joy today. I am happy to feel God's love in this beauty of nature He let me see today. I'm grateful for my dear little frienfds - my dog and the neighbour's cat who love me just for what I am...I'm grateful for being just 26 years old this time...and for this blue moment I will remember forever...

                               Hope

Have you ever had this feeling like you need someone so much but this person is away and there is no way to contact him\her? I believe almost everyone has experienced that tricky situation. 

I have lost some very dear people to me this year. Their voices are still in my ears, on my mind. I miss them. Never thought I would. Thanks to God, I somehow manage to keep my sad thoughts away while translating something or teaching. I'm happy to be busy these days. 

Today I enjoyed completing some of my long-awaited tasks. It is funny but for some urgent things there is no time. Time is a really mysterious thing. It always slips away. I can hardly catch its tail. But sometimes I can somehow follow it, almost running. 

I'm thankful for spending some time with my family today. My dad has come back home. I could share some of my joys with him. It was so nice to see joy in his eyes. 

I miss some people. Some of them I won't see in our world anymore. Some I may still see one day. No idea. But I'm happy to have had and still have them in my life. 
I'm grateful for this unexpected strength I had today. I'm grateful for my hope. It's great to hope even if there is no evidence of your hope...

                        A Warm Hello

This day I received a warm hello from my far away friend who's like a brother to me. I felt really happy. It's great to feel myself needed and cared for. 

I have enjoyed a wonderful talk with another friend of mine. It always feels warm and so cosy to speak with him. 
I'm happy I have "survived" my hyper-active student! ;) I even turned into her teacher of music for five minutes. ;)

I'm grateful for this invisible thread of people who care of me even though they don't have a chance to see me so far. I'm honoured to be in their thoughts and prayers. Life is great when you see someone close to you  even let it be miles and oceans away. 

             Freedom from Hectic Things

Today is the first day of Lent what means one should restrain oneself from some certain kinds of food and usual entertainment. We've already started our Easter preparations (by the way, our Easter takes place on 5th of May, so we have some more time!).

 It's a special time of the year. It's like an exam for me. I usually fail it this way of another. Even today my emotional condition was far away from the one I'd desire. But I'm still glad. I'm happy to realize that I actually need little to be happy. I just need my peace. And today I hope to listen to myself, my inner part. I'm spending this evening the way I don't usually do. I enjoy the silence, my thoughts. 

I'm grateful for this chance to learn myself and my own world. It is really necessary sometimes. It is a very long journey. Let's see where it'll bring me in six weeks. 

                           Imagine

If only my imaginations were visible! :D Maybe I could really make some of them visible by describing them. (?) But I'm afraid it's just like looking at someone...you never know how this someone sees you...You'll never know for sure. You'll always guess...

Today I was day dreaming. Listening to music and dreaming. And I am happy my dreams have no limits. They are sometimes weird. But they are so. Like me. :)

I'm grateful for this day. I'm happy for my friends who listened to me today. Who read my messages. For the sunshine I admired through the window. For the happy birds singing.
I'm happy to have my friends. I'm happy to be accepted the way I am. And I'm happy my friends see a better person in me. Better than I actually am. :)

                    Ice-Cream Joy

I'm like a kid when it comes to licking some ice-cream. :D Well, actually I just enjoy when it slowly melts in my mouth. I should care about my throat, though! Today after five hours of teaching I enjoyed a sweet plate of ice-cream (I'll start my diet anyway soon, so my body should stay patient!) while watching a movie. I know it's not the best way to stay fit and happy...BUT sometimes it's the best thing one can do to recharge his\her batteries. :)

I'm thankful for my busy Saturday, for my Internet back (that was disconnected yesterday evening for some hours. 

I'm happy to feel myself a child. I'm happy to have some carefree moments when all my every day troubles are frozen by a spoonful of ice-cream! :P

                        Booked Miracles

Can one book a miracle? Probably not. But one can certainly hope for it. 

Today I witnessed some miracles. I saw first yellow crocuses and green onions in our garden. An invisible artist has been painting things around for many days...I can't wait to smell it as well!!!!!!!!!!

Then I was doing my usual things and as soon as I finished some urgent articles, the power went out...And I was surprised. Well, not really about a powercut. It happens everytime it's windy here. But by the fact that I was given time to complete my work. 

There is really something wonderful about every day. My life is a miracle itself. The fact that I exist and type these sentences is perhaps the greatest miracle. ;)

P.S. And...the light is back!!!!!! Isn't it a miracle? ;)

KEEPING ON SMILING

Sometimes it's hard to smile. I have my days when I don't smile a lot. Today I had my reasons to smile. I heard the voices of people I care about. I saw someone I love very much. I received the words of love. Isn't that a good reason to go to bed with a smile in my heart? ;) 

Green Eggs and Ham for a Cat in a Hat or Surving another day without the Sun

I miss the sun. If you only knew how. I wake up in the arms of the cloudy spring. I don't give up. I hope for a nice surprise. For a sunny kiss on my pillow. This waiting is my joy. I wait. And I hope. My hope is like a candle. And I carry it through the darkness. ;)

Today my good friend sent me some more grammar books I'll happily use for my little students and myself. :P I wouldn't mind into turning an English speaking baby. ;) 

I'm thankful for my hope. I'm thankful for being able to polish my nails by myself. ;) I'm grateful for my new leaf of life. For someone I love. :) My day was cloudy but I think of my sun. :)

  My Handwriting and Silly Questions

Today my little student asked me "How can you write like that?" looking at my stiff fingers and the way I hold my pen. This sort of questions used to make me speechless and heartbroken. This time I felt funny. I smiled at her. And I said "I don't know. You see my fingers are not so flexible like yours, so that's my way". And...guess what? She said "I wanna try to write like you. Let me try..."....Haha. Yeah. 
Then one of my good friends wrote something silly to me today. And wonderfully his silly statement made me feel happy. Really. 

So, what shall one do to be happy? To be yourself. To have someone who accepts you and loves you the way you ARE. Without trying to remake you. 

I'm grateful for my fingers. For their great job. For their patience. ;) And for my lazy student who takes me easy. And for my friend for his being. For his time he presented to me. I'm grateful for my dear brother living far away. For his kindness to me.  For people who remember me and call me. 

Joy rolled in a Pancake and Knowledge in the Eyes of My Student! :)

Today we've started our Shrovetide. It's a special time when we bake lots of pancakes. They are like little suns. Melting in my mouth. This is my slow joy. ;) Well, I like to make it slow. To enjoy them with tea. To make a smiley face with honey or sour cream. ;)

Today my student made me feel so proud. I was in a bad mood. But her correct homework and the knowledge I saw in her eyes made me feel so sunny. I felt like I could fly. 

I'm grateful for my own little progress with my new foreign language. I know more vocabularies and can pronounce them better. I don't know if it all makes any sense. Maybe I am just wasting my time. My minutes of life. My precious moments. But it's like a sunray for me. I hope it'll be my sun too. Never mind my midnight nonsense. 

                  Laughing My Head Off 

As I've probably mentioned already - I love to laugh. I love to watch some comedies. I love to laugh with people, who like an echo laugh back...

This evening I enjoyed a nice British comedy. I had a nice portion of laughter. Let's say I almost laughed my head off. Then my mom joined my "shaking" moment and the power of our laughters connected made our day much brighter. 

Laughter is the best way to stay alive. Tears are important too. They both are essential parts of Life. I'm thankful for my peaceful evening. I'm thankful for my laughing moments. It's great to laugh and "infect" other people with my laughter...:D

A Bunch of Candies....and a Wonderful Moment of  Being Together! 

Today I had the best bunch of flowers in my life ever...a bunch of candies! ;) That was so cute especially if to take into account that they were presented by my young student. :) 

Later this evening after finishing my lessons I had a nice time of my life. The moment when I didn't feel alone but together with different human beings-my dear friends. They are all from different places. They are all very unique. I felt their voices, imagine their face expressions and literally felt the touch of their kind hearts. I somehow felt free. No limits. Just easy. And so warm. Even without any cup of tea. :)

I'm really grateful for my Saturday -sweet and warm. For this rain outside. For my smiling. For feeling myself not alone. I am together...

Unexpected Calls

It is great to hear the voice you were looking for so much. It is great to call someone you love. It's really amazing to speak with someone who cares of you. 

Today Ukraine is celebrating Women's Day. I wouldn't say I like this day so much. I take it easy. I don't mind receiving any nice greetings or words of love my way. ;) Today I was selfish. I did not make many calls myself. But I enjoyed receiving unexpected calls from people I don't always communicate with. It was really heartwarming to talk to people who thought of me today. I don't feel any anger towards those who did not call me. Everyone is busy. It's clear. I am myself this way. But these unexpected calls show me how I should really care of people around me.

I'm grateful for my friends and people who hardly know me for wishing me all the best. I'm grateful for my free day I could enjoy with my mom. I'm grateful for every person in my life. 

Smiling at Your Name

I'm grateful for having a name I always smile at when it comes onto my mind. Today I had some sad moments but whenever I thought of this name, I felt better. It's great to have such a name. To know that this person exists, breathes, smiles back. Just this very fact is enough to make me smile everytime I think of this name.

                     Healthy

It is very important to be healthy. To open your eyes and feel no pain. It is great to forget your glasses because you finally can see better. It is wonderful to hear a silent breathing of your dear one who's sleeping close to you or in the room next to you. It's great to be able to walk without feeling like you're gonna fall down because of aching feet...It is super to ask your friend how he\she feels and see\hear the reply "just fine". ;) It is a wonderful feeling to see someone you care so much about healthy and smiling. It is much better than any possible gifts. 

I can't boast of beeing the fittest person on our planet. But thanks to God, I am mostly free of pains or any other unpleasant feelings. Sure, there are some certain things I can't easily do. I can't even stand for a long time. If I stay on my feet, let's say for five minutes or more, my feet feel like they are getting numb, cold and then this crazy pain like thousands of needles are biting me...But I know my limits. And other than that I feel good. So good. ;) Especially when I see my dear ones healthy. 

Today my grandpa had to go to the doctor because he had been feeling rather unwell recently. He does have some health issues he has to solve but actually doctors stayed satisfied with his condition. And today my grandpa came to visit us and stay with us for some days. And it's great to see him.

I'm grateful for my grandpa. He's my only grandpa. I'm happy my fever is finally out of touch. ;) I hope it'll forget my address for a long time. ;) I'm so happy to get the message from my friend who is feeling well. :) It feels really amazing to be healthy....Yah!!!!!

                       As Fit as a Fiddle Joy

If it were possible you'd hear the melody of my inner fiddle...it is beautiful, believe me! ;)
Just like this:

Today I've come back to my usual (as one of my friends said "dull") daily routine. It seems like I'm feeling as right as rain today. Well, it seems like I'm again enjoying my cold blood and brain. ;)  Fever is gone, I mean

:) 

I'm grateful for my being able to teach today. I'm grateful for a nice evening conversation I had. I'm happy to realize that many people are much better and much more intelligent I could ever imagine. That makes me wonder. And it seems like there is a long way for me to learn. ;) And...that makes me feel younger. ;) 
I hope I'll be able to bring some more joy into the lives of people around me. My reason is selfish - bringing joy to someone else is like watering your own apple tree. ;) Not bad, huh? 

Fighting with Myself and Conference Adventure

This March day was the best I could even imagine in my wildest dreams. :) And it has been probably the best day this year so far. I have taken part in a German conference. And guess what? I have even had some crazy courage to speak up my mind! ;) And  the awesome thing is it seems people have enjoyed what I've presented! And they laughed their heads off...Yeah! My presentation was funny. That was my goal to make it unsual. Well, I feel like I could do it better...but  I'm really surprised it was generally accepted and liked. ;)
But my real joy was not just the presentation I made and the way it was presented. It was something more than that. What I can't really describe with words. It was something new. Something big. Something that will keep me warm for many days and maybe even months.

I'm grateful for fighting with myself. Yeah...I do it every day. And today especially. With all my current health issues and some emotional pain I have recently felt. I'm grateful for my dear friend who has really supported me during that conference time. I'm grateful for these 24 hours. I'm really happy now. 


Well, no idea what will be  tomorrow. I just hope I'll find some more reasons to smile again. :) The way I did today. Without any stops. Just pure joy. Nothing matters. 


P.S. In case you're interested in my presentation:


http://www.slideshare.net/DariaUkraine/rede-16927282

                       Speaking and Seeing

Well, my Sunday was lazy and sleepy. :) I have a perfect excuse, though - my fever! :) 

But I'm not sad at all. It's maybe the first time when I don't feel upset about my slight cold. Today I had some wonderful online meetings and some of my friends I could also see. Well, no webcam can substitue a real meeting. But as I say if you have no tea left - enjoy drinking something else. ;)
I'm grateful for being able to speak. I'm happy to speak some more German these days. I know I'd speak it thousand times better if it were not for my lazy bones...but even with this little sack of German words and grammar I can feel myself a German speaker...;) It's great to enjoy this feeling of being "clever".:D Haha. Well, not really about me. I just enjoy the moment, the process of learning. :)

I had a wonderful day. :) I'm so thankful for it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life is great. 

Snowfall, Fox in Socks and Laughing Minutes...

Today while chatting with one of my good friends online I saw snowflakes falling down outside! That was so miraculous! Like a sign of something eternal. Like the last good bye of winter, its last kiss...

This morning I also received some really wonderful English books from my dear friend who lives some oceans away...I felt like it were my birthday or Christmas. I was curious to open the package and smelling these brand new books! He has really made my day colourful! :)

This evening I spent with my mom, our TV set and then with my good friend. We had a funny talk that made us all burst with laugher like a spring thunderstorm! :) I have noticed that minutes fly away when we laugh. :)
I'm thankful for this (probably) last snowfall this season and the powerful spring coming our way...I count down the days to seeing and smelling it!!!!!!!!

Life is beautiful. 

FIRST DAY OF SPRING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally!!!!!!!

Guess what? It was not the warmest day of this year yet but even now I can see some butterflies flying behind the window outside...

My first day of spring was really nice - I spent some time outside and enjoyed playing with some cats (our neighbour's!). I am still under the weather but I'm happy.

I'm grateful for seeing this spring. Its first day I was looking forward to so much. I don't know what it's holding for me. I just hope something better than last winter. I hope it'll bring something new. 

I'm happy to live today. To chat with a new friend on skype. To learn a new world. I do not know exactly what was my real joy of today. There are many pieces that like puzzles make my happiness. I'm grateful for the spring sun that was playing with my plaits today and for devoted neighbour's cats who made me smile from ear to ear. :)