I am breathing
There are many
moments when I feel fed up with everything. When I don't feel any more energy in my veins to go
on with my monotonous daily routine. I am not that positive, always-smiling
girl some of you might consider. I am unlikely to fall into great depression
sessions but I sometimes feel like I'm a parachute jumper...Haha. It's exactly
like falling into a huge pile of snow.
I hope you don't get the impression as if
I'd hate my translation activity. No! I am passionate about it. The thing is,
my job, like all the jobs in the world, includes many additional moments that
are not directly connected with translations. I cannot really say that I don't
like "these additional" tasks, but sometimes I just get a bit
tired... I mean morally exhausted of this never-chaning chain of things I have
to keep in my mind.
Today was exactly such a day when I was close to "enjoying" a free
fall...:D But thanks to God, I managed to stand up and even smile. I suddenly
realized that I must be grateful to our dear Father for giving me all these
busy moments. It means I can handle more than I think. This bright idea
filled me with joy!
You know I dream of travelling and I'd rather
spend my life in reality than in front of the computer screen...But now I
understand - it is a piece of cake to be happy when you travel or just go
out BUT not everyone is ready to enjoy his\her endless mountain of tasks and
spend the whole day inside your nest. Well, don't get me wrong, please. I am
not trying to show you how heroic I am...Not at all! But it is fun to enjoy
what most people usually would not. :) I hope you understand my weird feeling!
I am sure it should give you some delicious food for thought! :):):)
I am grateful to
God for my busy Thursday, for people who trust me (despite the fact that
I don't really trust myself! :P ) and for giving me enough strength and
enthusiasm to love what I am doing. Now I am slowly sailing away to my
dreamland! I am happy I am breathing! :)
Stay warm and may God be with all of you who's reading my wandering thoughts!
Well, I know that being in all day isn't uplifting. I know that the endless wave of bad news and pleas for help you cheerfully deal with is a downer.
ReplyDeleteMe, when I become immersed in these things for very long I become somewhat depressed and have to let it be for a time. I've been letting it be for about three weeks. I need to get back to the website. Thank you for the inspiration.
Dear David, my lovely friend,
DeleteYour words lift me up! ;) I believe the problem is - the days are grey and I am always sleepy. :D But I am happy to realize how much you support me! :)
Hello little Dasha !!
ReplyDeleteI understand what you say, try to relax watching a good movie or listening to a nice song or any other activity to relax your mind. Ideal world without problems only in heaven. I see a little genius in you.
My lovely brother Vail,
DeleteI try to relax much, don't worry. :) I am trying to enjoy what I have. That's not always easy but I should learn this art! ;)
I have ever tried translation for volunteer once(the script of my friend's movie). Luckily, It was easy one(because that was character's speaking part, English to Japanese) At that time, I thought it need enomous energy and patience to concentrate on it.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing a great job which not many people can do, Daria.
I know you love your work, and they need you also. There could be a rough day in your career. Please take a rest(sleep in your case:D）.
Aww..Asako, your words make me blush! ;) Thank you for your great and warm support! I am feeling myself much stronger now!
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