The Chemistry Between Us 

Has it ever happened to you when you felt like you'd known someone for ages even though you met this someone for the first time ever? Have you ever felt like you are on the same wave with someone? It can often be an absolute stranger. You may have almost nothing in common. This person may be 50 years wiser than you. But whenever you meet this "someone", you're all ears, all smiles and all eyes. You feel like you're glued to her\him. This person magnetizes you. It can certainly be described by a powerful chemical reaction. You both react together. You are different. Like a banana and a tomato. But you are connected. You're like notes and the piano...

There are many things I take in my life for granted. I am shy to admit but I rarely think how lucky I am. I tend to think about the things I want to have but do not have so far or might never enjoy. I am trying to get rid of such "selfpity moments". Not always successfully. But I am determined. I'm fired with enthusiasm to go on with this battle against my selfish dreams. 

Thanks to  my dear friend I had the privilege to meet today, I am grateful for my warm home, my cup of hot tea, my friends who care about me. She's my former chemistry teacher.  She's retired now. One could describe her as a homeless person. :( She had to face many sad moments in her life: awful poverty, death of her dear husband...She dreamt of becoming a mom but due to some health problems could never feel this happiness...She used to be our village teacher. I must mention  she was the best chemistry teacher in our region.  I'm proud to have had such a brilliant private tutor.  As a schoolgirl I had a strange allergy for math and all those "wise" sciences. :P This beautiful lady saved me. She had the right medicine for me. :D  She just came and brought me a great gift - love to chemistry. Believe it or not - a week later I could amazingly comprehend chemistry! It was a real miracle. Unfortunately, I could not do any experiements due to the fact that I had my school education at home. However, I felt really thrilled about all those "reactions"...

Thanks to my dear chemistry tutor (my only tutor ever), I was the best chemistry pupil in my class. :D (Forgive me my terrible modesty, please!). But she has brought me more than just love to chemistry. She showed me a different universe. She taught me to appreciate what I have. She has never treated me as a helpless girl with limited abilities. 

Today she came over again. We had some lunch together, then I showed her some pictures on my laptop. We watched the summer video of us together we made last year. She was smiling. So sunnily. I saw a wonderful lady. Her 76 years of wisdom make her really beautiful. 

She has made me feel ashamed today. She lives in her tiny apartment alone. She has no heater, so she often freezes in winter, trying to keep herself warm with her oven. Today she shared her "happy news" with us: she again has her "electrity back and running water...". I wanted to punch myself at that moment...I really felt like scolding myself. My friend has so little, but she tries to keep her chin up. She lost everything and everyone. But she is alive. Her neighbours  dislike her style of life: she keeps homeless cats and dogs in her apartment what makes it all smell very unpleasantly. She has a few friends. I don't want to justify her manner of life or judge people who don't want to understand her or even support her. I am just thankful to her. She is my example of a real strong spirit.

I am grateful to God for this  real chemistry between us: her and me. I hope this reaction will last forever. :)